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Playing Dead
04:30
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Know what I want
That's what I can't get
Like a stone when I want
Demeanor, I'm dead set
A bull at the horn
A horn into your head
Got a moment alone
And I'll take what I can get
Let it all out, get it all out
Write it all down, write it all down
Be here and now, be here and now
Am I fast asleep or playing dead?
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
Let it all out, get it all out
Write it all down, write it all down
Be here and now, be here and now
Am I fast asleep or playing dead?
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
Know what I want
It's just what I can't get
Got a moment alone
Let's see what I've been keeping in
We'll never know
Cuz the path that I tread
Is the easiest one
And I've gotten used to it
Let it all out, get it all out
Write it all down, write it all down
Be here and now, be here and now
And I'm fast asleep or playing dead
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
Let it all out, get it all out
Write it all down, write it all down
Be here and now, be here and now
Am I fast asleep or playing dead?
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
Am I fast asleep or playing dead?
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
Am I fast asleep or playing dead?
Either way, I shouldn't be in bed
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Personal Mottos
04:22
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If I spoke my mind you'd probably laugh at me
Hold light to my own eyes, give the third degree
Gasping, what is happening, is my future here?
Caught up to the past and now in present fear
Cuz I can't control it, you can't control it
We both know better but we're both beholden
To our own ego and our own ethics
Personal mottos and sense of otherness
Dismount, I'll come down, sorry you had to see
My ungracious heart's lapse in apathy
Face is fraying like I never want it to
A bear, sharp claws thick hair from harmless words from you
I can't control it, you can't control it
We both know better but we're both beholden
To our own ego and our own ethics
Personal mottos and sense of otherness
I can't control it, you can't control it
We both know better but we're both beholden
To our own ego and our own ethics
Personal mottos and sense of otherness
I can't control it, you can't control it
We both know better but we're both beholden
To our own ego and our own ethics
Personal mottos and sense of otherness
I can't control it, you can't control it
We both know better but we're both beholden
To our own ego and our own ethics
Personal mottos and sense of otherness
I can't control it, you can't control it
I can't control it, you can't control it
I can't control it, you can't control it
I can't control it, you can't, I can't
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Sugar and Fill
03:59
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What I said, what I said, when I said it
I mean it, I meant it
I'll never mistreat it, abuse it or beat it again
Here I am, hat in hand, once again
Bleeding and beating my chest
In a show of disgust and mistrust as your friend
Warning bell, hear it well, what the hell?
It's there just for this but I
Cave to the kiss and the whistling wind through my shell
Sew me up, cut me out, scream and shout
Spit I betrayed you, I
Spit back I gave you the means to rely on yourself (And we're both wrong)
Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so they said...
4 am, feeling ill, take a pill, nothing real just
Sugar and fill in my gut
Can't throw up this disdain for myself
Set alarms, three or four, out the door, hit the floor
Running and I can't keep tripping up the same set of steps
I've fallen up before
Can't keep falling up, falling up, falling
Can't keep falling back, falling back, falling
Can't keep falling in, falling in, falling in, falling in love
Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so they said...
Cold night, warm stars 'bove my head
Cold hands, warm heart, so I said...
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Moving Blinds
04:43
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Not my inclination to unpack why I'm afraid
Tuck these vivid images somewhere inside my brain 'til I
Can't deny, can't deny, fail to fly, flee, or hide and
Circles, lines, and blood are pooling just beneath my sight
Battle scars from fighting every minute in the light wondering
What's it like, what's it like? Shedding skin, taking flight
Timidly call out to moving blinds
Ask, "are you there?" and then say "never mind"
Faithlessly announce that I am fine
But vacant space still keeps me up at night
Muscles wind there worry on my bones and grip me tight
Cannot move my hands to blindly glide and find the light fearing
Is that you behind me? Senses peak, spirit leads moving
Right into my stomach, swelling fluid in my spine
Flesh erected by a though that's growing in my mind, thinking
Am I visited at night? Maybe... just a flicker of the light
Timidly call out to moving blinds
Ask, "are you there?" and then say "never mind"
Faithlessly announce that I am fine
But vacant space still keeps me up at night
Fearfully cry out to rattling doors
"You're not welcome here, not anymore"
Seeking air, collapsed upon the floor
Shaking at the thought forever more
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Easy Lift
04:54
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Pulling at my own skin
Clasping every inch of it
Decision, each incision is
To bleed out all the negative
That's half of what's contained within
Remainder varies quite a bit
And if I'm half of who I'm with
A lighter load, and easy lift
Give us something to do here
Counting down 'til the New Year
Lie in the shadow of sun
Sweat running down my brow to my tongue
Adonai, Hallelujah
Feel the water run through ya
I know it could be better done
If I could be the better one
Left to do what we do here
Hold our breath 'til the New Year
Lie in the shadow of sun
Sweat running down my brow to my tongue
Adonai, Hallelujah
Feel the water run through ya
I know it could be better done
If I could be the better one
Twisting all my own rope
Blistering from the length I wove
Entrusting my entire load
To the line until it finally broke
Hoping that this final note
In glassen vessel fails to float
And that it never meets the coast
Cuz saving face matters the most
Left to do what we do here
Hold our breath 'til the New Year
Lie in the shadow of sun
Sweat running down my brow to my tongue
Adonai, Hallelujah
Feel the water run through ya
I know it could be better done
If I could be the better one
Give me something to do here
Counting down to the New Year
Break all those promises, done running all of the races I run
Adonai, Hallelujah
Let the water renew ya
I know it could be better done
If I would be the better one
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Addy Edward New Haven, Connecticut
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